I am a firm believer that the two do not exist in the same sentence in the form of Burnout causes depression. If we look at wikipedia on the definition of “Occupation Burnout”:
Burnout is a type of psychological stress. Occupational burnout or job burnout is characterized > by exhaustion, lack of enthusiasm and motivation, feelings of ineffectiveness, and also may > have the dimension of frustration or cynicism, and as a result reduced efficacy within the > workplace.
We can see just how wrong I really am.
I have been working on Rpg Maker Plugins, my Rpg Maker Game, My own actual work for a company that specializes in building gadgets that you can use to collect donations for your own charity or organization and I have been working on this site (there is a lot that goes on behind the scenes)
The last month I have had to deal with the holidays, my own depression and this burn out. Pile it all together and I'm about to fall apart into a break down.
Accept I can’t. I cannot let my self fall apart and lie in bed because where would that get any one? No where is the correct answer to that question. Instead I push through. I break the boundaries of my own mind and I keep going. I put one foot infant of the other, because in this day and age - You don’t have time to burn out or become depressed.
I have so many things coming down the pipe including features for my own site, game development and of course work.
My days generally start at about 11 AM and end around 2 or 3 AM.
It’s the fun part about working from home, your own hours, your own time lines, but the pressure to accomplish that and everything else is overwhelming and sometimes deadly.
I have blown off my friends, my family, my social life to make sure that everything I have going I manage to complete. All while also trying to fit in seeing someone new since my last relationship blew up in my face and left me miserable, angry, depressed, suicidal and well so much more that it's not even worth listing here.
All I keep telling my self is:
One foot in front of the other, one more cigarette to keep you focused, one more glass of wine to relax.
None of the above is healthy. But we all have our vices and I say mine better then hard core heroine.
The point I am trying to make is that working to escape the world around you traps you inside a prison of your own mind. One that is hard to break free of.
You can’t run from your own demons, You can only face them and hope that you are stronger then them. That they wont get the best of you.